I’m so undecided if I am happy where i am or so content to ignore what I want and settle for satisfactory. There are so many things i want to be and change and find, but I feel as if I try too hard it can only lead to utter disappointment. Is it easier to just reassure myself I am happy than it is to find that missing piece, or even just recognize and come to terms with it. I know what I want. I know my biggest insecurities. But I guess it’s easier to just pretend that I can’t do anything about it, push them away and lie to make it feel better.
The easy path. What a bitch. It seems great at the time until you take a glace at all the opportunities you missed. I guess I have to come to terms with the fact not every aspect of my fairy tale life can be fulfilled. Here’s to hoping the future has great things installed.
